From my own space,
Being an Open Channel – from the Right to Write by Julia Cameron
“Moving alone onto the page, we often find ourselves companioned by higher forces, by a stream of insights and inspirations that seem somehow “other’ than our routine thinking. Universe – you take care of the quality, I’ll take care of the quantity.’
…channel writing. You may want to think of this as calling on the Muse. (The Right to write by Julia Cameron)
Use a question and wait for the answer.
Tarot cards are useful for this exercise. You don’t need to know how to read tarot, for this just simply look at the image on the card and write down what you see, what comes first to mind , then write down what comes to you.
…recognize when currents of change, like movements in a symphony are moving through …
…a subtle feeling of dissatisfaction, a sense of being out of control. Julia Cameron
This spoke to me so loudly, it was almost scary. I spent a three day weekend by myself, not counting my two dogs and the occasional visit from the kids, popping in for few minutes to get something, or use the laundry room. I was by myself, went for walks with the dogs, spent time out in the yard, tried to read, write, organize, plan. But I was distracted. Something kept me form enjoying my moment of solitude. I was uneasy – what is missing? You know the feeling you should be doing something but don’t know what that is. I turned on the TV and watched Netflix to ease that feeling. I was able to dull the ache for a while, but by Sunday the feeling had intensified.
I even avoided writing my morning pages.I was too afraid to let my mind wonder on the page. I did write in my omni journal , but in spurts only not really focussing on the task.
Today I feel the need to write until I find relief. What is going on? Writing is my way of sorting things out, on my own, in confidence. Not letting anyone know how unravelled I feel.
Change is coming, I can feel it. As I have mentioned previously, I am not comfortable with change, but this dissatisfaction is disorienting. I love being in control, planning out how things will evolve and trying not to have too many surprises. But this feeling is uncomfortable, subtle yes, but strong enough to be felt. So is it a coincidence that I felt the need to read the next section of the Right to write and this is what it said.
I need to handle myself with gentle care.
…put it into perspective within a larger context.
His inner reality and his outer world no longer mesh.
…explore daily what I can do to move the life I have closer to the life that I want.
I have had many of these experiences over a lifetime and have come to believe in the information that I receive. This is just one of those experiences that might have freaked me out years before and would have though of as just a coincidence. I know better now and prefer to think of this as serendipity.
I have taken the information to heart and will be writing down my thoughts and questions and use my angel and tarot cards to see where this will lead. The answers might take some time. I don’t know what will come of this exercise, but I am so willing to give it a go.
Writing is not only the river but often the bridge across the river
Walking into change — record change in tiny , manageable increments. That for me is the key. Manageable – I find myself unable to deal with a lot of changes lately without feeling anxious and stress out. The need to stay in bed, under warm comfy covers and hide from the world is very strong at this moment. I cannot let it take over, I keep moving in short increments. Focusing on the needing to be done now, the dogs need their walks, the dishwasher needs emptying, the winter clothes need to be brought down form the upstairs closet, I must go to work today and focus…etc. Life continues, family and friends need attention and all this is done on automatic pilot. I do not need to think to accomplish these tasks, but the nagging feeling of STOP and listen is getting hard to ignore.
I just spent three days and did not use them as they were intended. I know this to be true, because of how I am feeling today. What is this feeling ? How can I make this go away? Questions I will be pondering on the pages in the next days and maybe weeks ahead.
Integrating – Initiation tool
Very often, without our knowing it, we slip ‘out of synch’ in our lives. We are subtly out of alignment, off our centre and it happened without our noticing.
Wow! That spoke to me so loudly I needed to read it twice and write it down. This is what I was looking for without knowing it.
Very rapidly complete the phrase “I wish’ twenty-five times.
Your wishes will range form the small to the substantial, from personal to professional.
…written out once a month, they actually move us on a subconscious level to act in the direction of our dreams. Repeat this exercise one a month or whenever you are feeling particularly scattered.
I have dedicated a page in my bullet journal to these exercises and plan on adding them to my To do list as needed. Maybe getting into a routine of doing a few writing exercises, at least the ones that speak to me, will help keep me in the writing mood.
Hope this blog might bring some incite to anyone out there feeling this unraveling feeling. If you are not in the habit of writing things down in a trusty journal, I recommend you start. You might find surprising answers.
A bientot ,